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4:39 PM

Friday, April 30, 2010

i was so lost
i was like wind drifting across big clouds
i wanted to stop
but i couldn't stop
i am in a plight
but who's gonna pick me up from this plight ?
i think so much
i don't want to think
i worry so much
which i don't have to worry
i plan so much
which everything at the end not accordin to my plans
what am i doing ?
i don't know

12:00 AM

happy birthday to you ,JESSMAN ....
ILOVEYOU

9:28 AM

Thursday, April 29, 2010

COUNTDOWN 3 DAYS !!

6:34 PM

Wednesday, April 28, 2010

changes happened between us
and i hope you know i am always who i am
and you are always who you are .......

11:42 AM

Tuesday, April 27, 2010

i am going to leave my city soon and gonna move to another city
i think i won't miss anything in my city but only my house
well actually
i am just movin to another new city to study
lOl
that's way to exaggerate !!
the way i talk bout this
but one thing
i am surely gonna miss my home
i am always going to miss my home
especailly my mum...
she is turnin older and older
alot if things she doesn't seems to remember sometimes
i always wanted to remind her but i don't seem to be the one
cause i am almost the same as her lOl
i don't rememebr things well
i dont' wana to leave her alone
but i know i have to
i hope she will get used to the day
breakfast without me
lunch without me
dinner without me
exercising without me
sleep without me (i sleep with my mum)
shoppin without me
watching dramas movies without me
walking without me
i am ...
going to miss u like hell T____T
i don't wanna think bout it anymore
i am going ~

10:50 AM

Monday, April 26, 2010

life is short
and we all really need to step back and realized how great it really can be
love your life
and live no regrets

9:02 PM

Sunday, April 25, 2010

U BITCH !!
what do you want from me ?
i don't and never mean to be so rude and bad words aren't going to split out anytime
but YOU !! made me so pissed off
i HATE YOU !!

10:45 AM

Saturday, April 24, 2010

last week when i was going to have my breakfast i met my grandma & grandpa
they are getting very old
older than i thought they should be
they have so much grey hairs and wrinkles all around their faces
they walked slowly to the table and they sat down and ordered their food with their daughter's kids
they are old
older than i thought they would turn to be
but they are still so healthy that they smiled like they always do
later i was gone and went home with my mom
on the way home i thought of nothing
and really nothing

-SKIP-

it is late night and i finished movies with my brother
he went bed before i do cause he is going to school tomorrow
and i don't cause i no longer going
i sit in front of the com and think for a very long moment
he mailed me a long long mail
he talked alot
it is his very first mail which is more than 150 words
he apologize to me and so did i in the last mail

-SKIP-

words for him :
i know you care bout us
which your carings i dunno it is real or it is not
well ,i dun really care
and like you have mentioned i am no longer a child
you are glad cause i able to differenciate rights and wrongs
and i really know how to do it
there's always something you cant and you wouldnt want to tell anyone
you would rather keeep them to yourself
but it doesnt mean that it is not existed
i know you knew this very well ....

10:45 PM

Friday, April 23, 2010

you misunderstood me
it hurts me , a little , maybe
i don't know
but i am so upset
i feel so bad
i don't like the way you tellin me that i am rude
and i shouldn't address in that manner anymore
i want to tell you that you don't really get my points
and you took it not right
you are wrong
you don't understand me
you left us alone 10 years ago
and now you come back 10 years later
we are not an item
we are human
we are not something you can throw away when you think we burden you
and pick us up again when you think you should take this responsibilities again
you don't understand and you don't know me
you are not there for me when i needed helps physically and mentally
"NEVR ADDRESS IN THAT RUDE MANNER"
i should tell you
"NEVER ADDRESS IN THAT SIMPLY-LEAVIN-SIMPLY-COMING-BACK MANNER"

8:40 PM

Thursday, April 22, 2010

INJURY 1

INJURY 2

INJURY 3

-i was cyclin and there was a cat WENT ACROSS me all of a sudden

-i was at sea

-i was tryin to shun the cat

-i happened to fall down

-injuries all over my LEFT hand,leg

-SCARS again T_________T

11:23 AM

Tuesday, April 20, 2010

10 ways to go green

-save energy to save $$$
-save water to save $$$
-less gas=more $$$ (better health)
-eat smart
-skip the bottled water
-think before you buy
-borrow instead of buyin
-buy smart
-keep electronics out of trash
-make your own supplies
-bonus item !

7:55 PM

Tuesday, April 13, 2010

lOl
RED
ORANGE
YELLOW
GREEN
BLUE
INDIGO
PURPLE
lOl
i PASSED my make-up test
with FLYIN COLORS~
lOl
lOl
lOl
lOl ;D

it is like i am full of COLORS~
i am FLYIN
and couldnt stop LAUGHING _____lOl

10:45 PM

Monday, April 12, 2010

i am havin projects
and it is the only way i earn $$$ now
lOl
happy
but TIRING T_____T
i know alan takes this project very serious
i can see that
he works so hard
even if he faces obstacles
even if sponsors turned him down
he could still laugh and smile at me
tellin me " NEVERMIND "
his smilin is so warm like nothin in the world can break him down
one day
"there will be one day i wanna be like alan so much."
alan smiled and said to me, " he is waiting."

9:15 PM

Tuesday, April 6, 2010

TEGAN's c r a v i n s

-new bike
-iPOD shuffle
-new laptop
-$$$
-water bottle
-reloads
-purse
-chocolates !!
-sweets !!
-iceCREAm !!
-time
-intelligence
-toughness
-drivin license
-watch
-cert for ENG test
-trusts
-independance
-ETC.

7:14 PM

Saturday, April 3, 2010

today finally i have recieved the approve letter from UTAR
which means i am really going to study and there's no more turnin back
it is a good thing
it has been arranged
i dont have to think so much
the more options given
the more irritation could happen
UTAR offers me FOUNDATION OF ART leadin to BA(hons) BUSSINESS ADMINISTRATION OF ENTREPRENEURSHIP
it is my first choice as well
glad ~
a whole new world and moment is going to start soon
and that's my decision